Self Portraits I Can Barely Tolerate 003

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I’d probably look a lot more sinister in this photo if it had been taken by someone I was about to hurt, rather than by me standing alone in my living room.

Technical Stuff: I love light. And when I can get it to work properly I get very happy. Which is why I like this shot. The one visible eye, and the dark empty space where the other one should be, is exactly what I was trying for and I got it on the first shot… I was using my little pocket digital set only on “portrait”. This is a crop, however. In the original my chest and shoulders are also visible.

I think I look like a minor villain in a Batman comic, and I’m totally cool with that.

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The Hyperbole Of Hope And The Inevitability Of Change

President Elect Obama won the election, yet Senator McCain didn’t lose so much as he came in a very close second. The person electors wanted to punish was President Bush, and they have.

The almost-former President’s place in history has been set in stone with this election. There will be no redemption. His will forever be known as the “Idiot Presidency”. Everything he “accomplished” will be forever eclipsed by the absolutely historic election of an African-American president. The Bush legacy will be reduced to books written about the lies used to get into a second Iraq war, and the disgraceful response to Hurricane Katrina.

Ding dong the wicked witch is dead. But she had been on life support for four years and wasn’t expected to live much longer anyway, so taking credit for her death after sticking a sword in a her lifeless body, and dancing on her grave after her body had already been put into the ground might be justified by the amount of relief which needed to be released, but it’s hardly a victory.

President Obama is a remarkable person, with a remarkable personal narrative, and his election to the presidency is an incredible testament to the historical narrative of the United States. But his election owes almost as much to American dislike, even hatred, of a president who would have been gone in a few months no matter who was running.

The strategy of the campaign commercials run on American networks by the Democrats was to tie Mr. McCain and other Republican candidates to President Bush, the least respected President in a hundred years. But after raising US$600,000,000 and spending a record amount of money, after running against President Bush’s mostly inept eight-year record, President Obama’s margin of victory in the national “popular vote” was only five percent.

The political spectrum of the United States is still as divided the day after President Obama’s election as it was a few years ago, essentially there’s only been a six point swing from 2004. It’s the years of Left v. Right hyperbole and rhetoric that have been wiped away, not the problems or issues facing Americans.

President Obama cannot force people to buy cars and houses, so the auto sector will continue to collapse and the housing market will continue to find its bottom. Thousands of jobs will continue to be lost in every economic sector, and thousands more Americans will lose whatever tiny bits of health coverage they had left.

The American debt is over eleven trillion dollars. The ability to erase the deficit, let alone the debt, will be almost impossible during a recession. Which means both will inevitably rise, and the economy of the United States will get worse before it will get better.

The first contact Europe will have with President Obama will be when he tells Spain, Germany and Italy to commit troops to the front line in Afghanistan. But while those governments have already committed troops to Afghanistan, they also refuse to allow their troops leave their bases and engage in any combat roll.

During the election Mr. Obama repeatedly said he wants to renegotiate NAFTA, but Canada has no interest in doing so and the agreement cannot be opened without the participation of the other partners.

As American influence in Iraq wanes, Iran’s will rise. The American military has been abused for sixteen years, from being was cut apart during the Clinton Presidency to spending six consecutive years fighting two wars. Fixing the military during a war will be almost impossible, and every day the American military is in Iraq and/or Afghanistan only adds to the economic deficit.

I imagine there’ll be a great number of people who will be walking on air over the next few months, and maybe even years, but to fix what is actually wrong with the United States will require years, probably even decades to repair.

The “hope” Americans voted for lies in the cleanliness which comes with a new President, and only in the potential for something new. American politics is very much like its own unique brand of Evangelical Christianity in that every four to eight years all of the electorate’s sins are absolved, as long as they admit their guilt by voting in a new direction.

The “change” President Obama promised has come and gone with the election. The United States has fundamentally changed with his election. Now President Obama himself is the “hope”, not his policies. The problems his country faces are large, and will take time to fix, but they are ultimately ordinary. And because the problems are ordinary his solutions to the problems must be standard and ordinary.

The majority of people who voted for Barack Obama did so out of their intense belief in his ability. But he was elected as President based on the fears some had of a continuation of a Bush Presidency, the desire of others to punish a Bush Presidency, and by people who wanted to again feel hope for their country. It will be interesting to watch him work in the mundane spaces. And whether that ordinary work will continue to inspire those who voted for “hope” or against President Bush.

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Boo

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I almost cried the first time I killed a man. But just when I thought I’d break down my friend reached over, put his warm hand on my blood soaked shoulder and said “dude… he totally deserved it.” After a few moments I slowly nodded, then looked up into his deep black eyes and said “thanks Satan. That helped.” Ooo… did you just get chills? I did.

Technical Stuff: I set my wee Kodak C533 on “landscape” and multiple exposure, then braced it against a young pine tree, gave it time to focus and gently pressed the go-button until the camera took its three photos.

The last time I got all painted up for Halloween was back in grade school. I just put thick blue, red and white grease-paint on my face in mostly random swirls… I think I put on my grandfather’s big, red canvas coat. I’m not sure what I called my costume then but now I’d call it “a trip gone bad”.

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Ten Years Ago SCAN Could’ve Had Me Evicted But Activists Nearly Did It On Their Own

A friend of mine raised some concerns on her blog about Bill 106 – ‘The Safer Communities and Neighbourhoods Act’, which was recently introduced into the Ontario Legislature as a private members Bill by Ottawa Centre Liberal MPP Yasir Naqvi. This post is an extension of the comments I left as responses to her post.

Twelve years ago I was living in a rooming house in Hintonburg, at the time it was probably the worst neighbourhood in Ottawa.

Back in 1996 prostitutes and their johns were having afternoon sex in the park, parents and their kids were always finding handfuls of needles in the sandbox, and when I got home late at night it was expected there’d be emergency vehicles somewhere.

What they did to clean it up, from memory, was form a community action team which took down license-plate numbers of johns, they patrolled the parks at night in shifts, they cleaned the playgrounds everyday, they monitored their neighbours for suspicious behaviours and they had a direct tip line to the police.

I was one of those neighbours exhibiting suspicious behaviours. So were the other people living in the rooming house. Mostly because we were the poorest people on the street, but we were also the scariest as well. My 50-year old down-the-hall neighbour and friend, “Wild Bill”, was a 5’10” 240lb, weight lifting, solvent huffing, ex-biker with swastika tattoos and a massive beard. And there were always alcoholics or addicts in the early stages of recovery coming and going from the house.

One of the tactics my neighbours used to clean up their neighbourhood, at least my little piece of it, was to call 911 to report seeing someone walk into the rooming house carrying a gun. I woke up to the tactical team a few times, but there were never any guns. We were not a crack house… if anything we were an early-recovery house.

However, I do think they did the right thing. I really do. I think the neighbourhood had gotten so out of control that extreme measures were warranted. Even if I was an occasional target.

Back in 1996 I had just walked home from downtown and was in the back of the Mac’s Milk trying to decide between chocolate milk and pop. It was 2am and I was listening to White Zombie on my Walkman. When I turned around there were five kids screaming at the clerk. Then three of them started stuffing their jackets with junk food while the other two started punching the clerk, trying to get at the cash.

After I chased the kids into the street the youngest one, the police later told me he was thirteen, turned and pulled a paring knife out of his pocket. But his buddies were already running so he did as well. When the police arrived, in an effort to find and maybe identify the kids, one of them took me on my first community tour of Hintonburg. We drove slowly down a block and he showed me the crack house. Then he showed me the one on the next block, and the next block, then the park where the wet condoms would be left on the playground equipment.

I recently walked through the area a few months ago for the first time since moving away. I walked along Wellington from Parkdale Avenue all the way east to the bridge near Bayswater. Most, if not all of the architecture is the same, and there’s still an edge to the whole area, but the people and the contents of the shops were all different.

According to Hintonburg.com, Hintonburg was named as “one of the top ten emerging neighbourhoods in Canada” by enRoute magazine in its April, 2007 edition. And according to a 2008 editorial in the Ottawa Citizen “the changing nature of the neighbourhood is fascinating to watch… There is a hip, urban edge.”

Since his piece of Ottawa seems to be in full recovery mode, maybe it shouldn’t be totally unexpected provincial Liberal MPP Yasir Naqvi, whose Ottawa-Centre riding includes Hintonburg, would be responsible for introducing Bill 106 into the legislature. The private members Bill would give community action groups direct access to serious legal powers by creating “a [municipal] Director of Safer Communities and Neighbourhoods” for them to report serious incidents.

The biggest difference between the Bill and the tactics used by the Hintonburg community group back in 1996, and the point of biggest contention, is “[t]he Director can then apply to Superior Court to evict the tenant or close the property for up to 90 days through a ‘Community Safety Order’.” But right now the Ottawa Police Service Street Crime Unit, for example, works closely with local community groups, and together they do try to get the landlords of the crack houses involved in getting the squatters removed, or the property cleaned, through the courts.

Even the “anonymous allegations of unsafe or illegal activities”, and the “powers to conduct surveillance of accused tenants and homeowners”, are already in place between community groups and the police. Besides, the Hintonburg people back in 1996 had no problem doing either.

According to the Kingston Whig-Standard the legislation “would apply only if a municipality opts in to the program.” Kingston city council actually sent a proposal to the Ontario government pressing for the legislation last year, soon after Ottawa did the same. The City of Hamilton has also done the same. Actually most provinces have similar legislation, but they force their cities into the program. Ontario would be the only province to allow cities to opt in or out.

Personally I’d prefer to formalize this stuff to at least give the local activists some guidelines. Hintonburg did what they had to do to make their neighbourhood livable, and they managed to do it without breaking any existing laws and without anyone making any new ones for them. But they had a lot of help and input from the police. Not every community is so lucky.

…just an aside… I think what’s really bothering me is there are Hintonburg people — new,old or both — who are forming a new action committee against this Bill. After all the crap those fuckers put me and my friends though they should at least remember their own history, because it seems to me they got their area all nice and sparkley by using tactics very similar to those in this Bill. There are serious reasons not to like Bill-106, but if they get all “holier-than-thou” after what they did ten years ago it would really piss me off. Anyway.

The problem with “cleaning up” neighbourhoods, of course, is everyone just moves. Before Hintonburg it was the Vanier region of Ottawa where the majority of the problems where. There are serious urban social problems in every city, and treating the neighbourhoods like they were snow globes where all you do every ten years is turn everything upside down and let us all scatter to a new part of town is not a solution.

The legislation, as it stands now, would require the new agency to find out if the people being evicted have a place to stay, and if not information or arrangements for short-term accommodations would be made available. But that sounds vague and unenforceable.

But I can still see where this, or similar legislation, would make it easier for people living in “at risk” neighbourhoods who don’t have access to the activist talent pool Hintonburg had…

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Purple Veins

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I never really took a lot of nature shots when I was shooting with my real cameras. Any nature shot I did take always seemed forced, just another shot of a field or some mountains sixty miles away. Plus, for someone in my financial state, film was just too expensive to be wasting on photos I couldn’t show people… yeah, here’s thirty shots from the concert and oh, and here are some clouds.

Technical Stuff: There were no adjustments made to this photo, and that light is all natural. The flowers are about three feet off the ground which is why the ground is so out of focus… this is about as perfect a shot as I’ve ever taken not involving screaming people, police, beer, punks or screaming punk people throwing beer at the police.

Once I started using my digital camera, however, taking closeups of flowers just seemed natural. But now I don’t take a lot of architectural shots, and I haven’t been to a concert with my little digital yet but I’m pretty sure it’s going to suck donkey dong. It’s mostly a matter of lenses, of course, but there was a comfort level I had hiding behind my big Minolta and Pentax I can’t get with something that fits into my back pocket.

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Bee Wrapped In Pink

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Honey bees are responsible for roughly 80% of the food we eat and yet no one knows why they’re dying off in such huge numbers… before we brought the European honey bee over here it was the mosquito which did most of the pollinating. Of course we’re doing our best to eradicate them as well.

Technical Stuff: I lightened the entire photo by 15% using a photo editor, I think this would be equal to opening one stop during the developing process… if this were a black and white image. I love the way the bee looks like it hit the flower with force and is sinking into it. Those lines on the petals are my favourite part. With a tighter crop it looks like the bee is sinking into silk. I used my pocket-digital Kodak C533 set, I think, on centre-focus.

The honey bee has gone so far into remission there are huge parts of China where hundreds of people pollinate fruit trees by hand… is it just me or in today’s increasingly difficult economic downturn is there suddenly serious potential for job creation? Get North America back to work, kill a bee.

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